FEARING THE UNKNOWN

January 07, 2018



todaysouhaila@gmail.com


I'm currently setting on my bed after a hella looong day,today was the 1st day of my internship and let me talk you through it!shall I?
so I FINALLY got an internship (woop woop),if you've read my post >> here << you'd know that I was applying for internships for what feels like Aaages,because where I live (I don't know about other places!) getting an internship is like looking for a needle in a haystack! in most times you have to know the right people...which sounds so unright for me.But anayway,I'm glad I got it.

When I received the call that I my application was accepted ,I felt a mess of emotions,felt happy,excited,affraid..I was glad I ticked off one of my 2018's goals by the start of the year,excited for all the things I'm going to learn and the people I'm going to meet,and at the same time Afraid of the whole experience.
I spent the whole night thinking about my colleagues that I haven't known,the new environment, the new routine I have to establish, and the things I have to change to accommodate a 6-hour day in an office .... I thought of ABSOLUTLY EVERYTHING.I was so anxious.by 3(ish) AM ,I sat ten alarms just incase I didn't hear the nine ones haha.

My first day was on Thursday the 3th,I was still feeling not alright,got ready before time,had no appetite for breakfast..I took the first bus (always thinking about the whole thing),waited for the second bus which was Vvv late and arrived to the office an hour late (cheers to the bus).The bus delay was the cherry to the cake for adding more pressure,I wanted to make the first impression a good one,to be on time and simply control everything so the day can go smoothly.

I learned a lot from just one day and I'm not talking about the internship itself,but I learnt things about me:I overthink a lot,I'm affraid of stepping out of my comfort zone and that I try to control everything which is not always a great personnality trait.my colleagues were so nice and I liked the offices.I had two days internship till now and I'm kinda getting used to everything and feeling a lot comfortable.

Changing a trait in your personnality over a day is a little far from possible,but at least I know that I have to do something about it and it's now on my list of goals to start making small steps that will lead me to my bigger aim ,which is to be comfortable with facing the unknown.

I hope you enjoyed reading this post,I think learning about who we are is so crucial to progress and better ourselves,what's the personnality trait you wanna change? do you step out of your comfort zone? let me know in the comments and I'll talk to you in the next post.you can follow me on instagram for lifestyle photos,and my days as an intern over on instastories. 

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4 comments

  1. Congratulations on the internship!!!
    Britt | http://alternativelyspeaking.ca

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  2. I really like the new layout of your blog-it's really professional. I haven't been here in ages so this post was a good update on you. 😊 By the way, congratulations on your internship.😀🎊🎉

    PS: what happened to your Snapchat account?

    #sweetreats xxx www.bakingboutiquebirds.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. thank you so much lovely and welcome back here,

      I don't use my Snapchat account anymore,I was a bit lost between instastories and snapchat,I decided to share everything on instagram :) you can find me @todaysouhaila x

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